My personal issue

Self Esteem. This topic struck me by force which I couldn't comprehend. Self esteem is kinda sensitive issue for me, personally. When I was young, I didn't care less about the way I look, the way I carry myself, of what people thought about me. I was just being myself.

That was the sweet moment of life. All things ended when I was in secondary school. I started to see myself in a whole new light. I was more careful of how I look, following the stereotypical views of my environment.
I never see myself as being a guy who craves for fame and popularity but it's kinda hard to fit in if I didn't change my views of the 'world' that surrounded me.

Now I am in my second year in polytechnics and believe it or not, I am still suffering from self esteem issues. Now, If you are somebody that knows me pretty well, you know pretty much that I am a very confident person, one which can mislead to people misinterpret it as egoistic. However so, once I am in a new place, meeting new friends, I will start my self-doubt.

Many times I am in situation which lead me to think of what might people be thinking about me.
And theres also time that people who are already have a very good first impression started saying that they look unattractive. What of the people who have issues about themselves heard that? How does it make them feel? It's like if your unattractive, than they will feel worst than that, feeling their mind with self-doubt about how they look.

This Paranoia MUST stop.

There are lots of solutions but most of them must come from you. Like the saying goes ''If you want to love somebody, you have to love yourself first.'' or ''You are you. There's nobody who can be as uniquely define as you."